Rage
How do I teach my children how to deal with rage? I’m not sure I can even be a good model right now. Their ignorance is truly bliss. A dear one is asking again, “How could this be happening to her (a mutual friend) of all people?”, when I see the puzzle pieces fit together. I feel like throwing something and satisfactorily listening to the sound as it breaks. But it’s not enough.
Nor will it heal the hurt I feel for my friend. I can’t undo the years of co-dependence and what her children have seen and become. She played the part of “the saint” in a dysfunctional relationship. Not a one of her children is willing to be as sweet as her, because they see the pain it brings. So they treat her like he did. Something to be used. I have not words for my anger.
